We'd prefer not to exist. We can't quite take the necessary action - perhaps some revelation still lies in our futures - but we desire annihilation nonetheless. Can we find it?
Here are some words from an employee of a big company:
'...when you are on the job, it is almost impossible not to become this instrumentally rational person and that is how you get things done, and you get into this very structured way of thinking and it is not just doing it, it's you are totally engrossed in this instrumental process. It's like I am not really there.'(from Work, Self and Society by Catherine Casey)
'I am not really here.' That sounds brilliant. That's what we're looking for. Annihilation while conscious, complete incorporation in something bigger, no burdensome 'self' to manage. No need to worry for myself about right and wrong. Let's go.
